Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

   Lately, I am always in an appreciation of my self. It took me such a long time to live me the way that I always wanted and needed to be. I appreciate myself so much more now. Self love is  the ultimate love. I try to make sure that I love life all the time. I am always loving me. Right now I just have to be on a journey to upgrade my everything to the highest elevation. And yes I gotta get my teeth fixed soon. I have transportation issues. I don't like catching the bus a lot, to much on my body. Sometimes I just keep going be cause I always do. I have to stay active.  

     Thank God I remembered that I had a blog. So I am back to writing, blogging and posting. It has been a long while but I am back to blogging again. Hmmm where can I start? Well finally I am back home alone again. Got Derrick to move out and on. He is in Detroit living. He called me yesterday and kinda showed me the room he rents. Not bad and finally. He pays $200 a week. Glad he finally moved on. He finally grew up. He didn't wanna move so Joi came and put his clothes outside. The police assisted her.He had told me that I would have to evict him. So we got him up out of my house. 

My thoughts on  how  life is going...... You definitely have to take the bitter with the sweet. It's your own life do whatever you need to do to make yourself happy. You have to be your make sure your happiness has to come first. Why would anybody seek validation from anybody else? I am my own promotion team. As long as I have breath in my body I will always do my best. Remember everybody else is taken, be yourself. 🙂

I am feeling so inspired,  I am in a great plc right now. I definitely am in a great pace in life right now. I can smile and simply be grateful in life. I make sure that I am eternally gateful,  Life will definitely throw some challenges at you constantly however it depends on how you respond to the challenges that life constant puts in front of you. Mary J has a new song that I am in full support of. Good Mornin Gorgeous,  is my new anthem. 💅,  I love it!! It puts me a great place. I am feeling my self. Music definitely puts me in the best mood. I am in a great mood right now. No matter what life throws at you,  you have to keep going.  At this point in my life I have no purpose is me focusing on self love.Rigjt now,  self love is the abest love. This is my new anthem for life. I am in a great place and in the best mood in my life. I can look at myselfand know

Today went really well. We just hung out and played all day. Of course we took tons of pictures. We enjoyed our day today. My mom and Kay  didn't come her had to get her car fixed today. I loved Quiantae a lot.  So today we say with Kate during our visit. We just chilled all day. First he sat on the tablet playing.  Then I just sat with him enjoying our time together. I sometimes feel bad because I am broke and I didn't really have many snacks to share. But I just gave him whateva I had to share. And he is okay with whatever I had. He's okay with sharing with me.  We played a lot. We always enjoy each other's company as we always do. Today was a good day. We always have a good time together. He always makes my heart smile. Derrick is weird at times because he always thinks that Q doesn't talk but he always does. He isn't too quiet to me, he always talks to me. He talks a lot to me. We are in a good place.  But we are still going through s...

This post was from a few weeks ago. Our Play Date was invaded by Q's daddy last week. Our Play Date was extra special for that day. Derrick decided to not only show up to be but to show his son the love he deserved. So he began to play with Q. Usually his dad is too busy working to come to the library but he showed up to play with his son. At first Derrick went to the mall thinking that we were there but he realized exactly where we were. I had gotten a call from the library and as I walked to the front to ask questions regarding the fone call that I received, apparently Derrick walked in. There were difficulties because Derrick's fone is off and he had bn txt'n through FB messenger. Once I got to the play area that we were in I saw Derrick starting to play with our son. He played with not only Q, he played with Kaleb as well.     This will always be one of my favorite photos. Derrick just enjoying his visit with our son. Our visits always go great. We played al...

“ I can definitely say that my life deals with people who creates drama just because. I used to be a ‘worry wart’. People will bring drama to your life and won’t even care how the drama makes you feel. I had to learn how to not care about anybody else’s drama. Walking away is the best way to avoid everybody elses issues. I had to learn how to stay away from it all. No one else is willing to allow other’s situations to complicate their own lives. Who wants to live like that? How wld that be appropriate? Walking away from a troublesome situation I learned is always best for me. I’ve learned to just stay away from all drama. For my own sanity. Simply saying, this situation is too much for me to deal with so I’ll stay away. I like bein able to talk to a therapist to sort out my problems. I like bein able to tell people how I feel. People never really understand how they make others feel. And they will continue to push your buttons if you let them.  So I'm pushing my blog for it to be r...

      I've always been brought up to not focus so much on myself when there are always bigger fish to fry or more important things and situations to focus on. So I've grown up and began to focus on more important things.  I had to start over at times. That didn't matter to me. I just know that I have to keep going through the most of my storms. Life always hands you what they want you to have. My everyday is a blessing and I had to learn to not take a day for granted. Life is always beautiful in the mist of the storms. You have to make great decisions for a great out look. There are always blessings around the corner. I'm happy most of the time. Other days I learn to grit my teeth and keep moving. You always have to keep going no matter how tough life gets.  And here he is in all of his glory. We get along better now. I like that we are getting along better. Funny how I began to relax my uptight standards. I began to see things in a different light. ...

      I enjoy cooking especially spaghetti. First you have to start with ground beef, and spaghetti. You brown your beef until it's browned. Then you boil your spaghetti in a separate pot. Then after browning your beef, you season your meat with your choice of seasonings. I chose seasoning salt and Italian seasoning. Then I drained my spaghetti into a pot. After that I combined my spaghetti with ground beef. I let the combination simmer in a pot as the seasoning marinade together. You bring the entire pot to a simmer. Then you heat up the garlic bread in the oven. After heating your garlic bread place everything on your stove. And Wala your dinner is done. 

      So I had to come up with the realization that nobody can see the visions that I have for my life. My life goals have no meaning to no one except myself. People will always try to discourage you from following your dreams meanwhile ; trying to get you to see their visions for your life. I know what I am doing, while trying to keep a level head about being able to stay focused on my goals and dreams; while still trying to get where I need to go.       I stay dreaming while I am awake to ensure that I always remember that people will always attempt to throw you off so that you never get to see your dreams come true. I always know that he gives me all the visions that I need, I just have to work for what I want.                 What can I say about my dating past? I can say that I had a wonderful time with each person that I was involved with. So sad that each oppor...

My life hasn't ended up the way that I need for it to be. I need to get my life in a good place. My life's journey keeps going on.

   I woke up early. I made French Fries.

   I have a love affair with my hands. My nails arw growing great. It took a while for my hands fall in line and at least grow in correctly and growin the right way.  It took almost all of my life for my nails to start growing correctly and I'm happy with that. I guess since my nails are growing I just have to

      I am such a mom,  I always want things to be my way . But more importantly I want things to be right. Well at least in my eyes right? So last year was a year that my life changed dramatically. I had unnecessary people and moments prying to see what my next moves wld be, just to pry and not to assist me in any way. I had to pick myself up and continue on with my life without missing a beat. Life always gives you unexpected moments and blessings everyday. It is up to you for you to continue your own happiness and for you to keep your own smile on your face while staying happy.       Life begins to change everyday for you. What exactly can you do? Get a grip and hang on for the ride. Life changes everyday. What exactly can you do? You do what you need to do and keep it moving

   Up extra early in the morning. I'm thinking that I gotta go more. My youtube is back on and I'm excited about my opportunities. Gotta work on my writing more. Ans I gotta stay more in control of what happens to me. Because this is my life and nobody else's. So here I go. Starting my life all over again. Lemme get my writing back to were it needs to be. My life to my normal. But this is my new normal. And I gotta get used to it. My life went in a totally different way. My life ia crazy. I don't have my son; he's in foster care and I'm still hurt about it. I see him one day a week. I'm hurt but life goes on.  7

          For as long as I can remember I was under a certain impression that ppl wanted to be helpful to me because they were just really good ppl. That was so not the case, who wld've known that they were devils in disguise? The ppl that I thought were in my corner were actually ppl who had their own agendas. Initially it was all love until I guess they wanted to stop helping me. Oh well, I had to learn that everybody isn't really your friend. Not everybody means you any good.

     Recently, I had finally joined an MS support group on FB. I had never done anything like this right but I was looking for more support among my peers. And in an instant, I flourished. Once I had gotten here I felt as if I had truly belong. I begin to ask questions initially, just to see if any one else had bn going throu the same issues as I had. I loved the overwhelming responses that I had bn getting from everyone. For the longest time, I didn't feel that I belonged anywhere bc I cldntn't hear my own voices over the loud chatter from others. I had to stop walking quietly, plant my feel on the ground and take big steps.      Initially I was concerned as I was unsure of my steps and what my thoughts wld produce but; as I continue to move, I began to be more assured of what I was doin. Life began to look more positive.    Sure the situation looked bleak at times however; you can't stop and allow other situations to clutter your min...

      So I turned 40 this yr right? My children are getting older and I Lstarting thinking more freely. Growing up and getting older I felt my body would always be in great shape right? Without working out everyday, doing what it would take to make sure that I stayed in tip top shape.     With my body and this mess that they call #MS, I always thought thought that everything would be how it was supposed to be. Or at least what I was raised to believe it should have been. Back in the days, I didn't believe in having any kid of work on your body only because I never thought that any procedures were ever possible.       And since I looked it up, only because I wanted to know to see what was possible for me, just in case I felt the need to appease my curiosity, how much a procedure like that would cost and also how long the down time for it it would be.       I was able to see something because there were more options to ...

Sitting here tryna figure out where I go from here. I am register for my spring classes for this next semester. I am starting classes to become a jounalist. I love to write. I like finding out new information. I have been doing this for a while, may as well make my money doing it.