Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

My thoughts on  how  life is going...... You definitely have to take the bitter with the sweet. It's your own life do whatever you need to do to make yourself happy. You have to be your make sure your happiness has to come first. Why would anybody seek validation from anybody else? I am my own promotion team. As long as I have breath in my body I will always do my best. Remember everybody else is taken, be yourself. 🙂

I am feeling so inspired,  I am in a great plc right now. I definitely am in a great pace in life right now. I can smile and simply be grateful in life. I make sure that I am eternally gateful,  Life will definitely throw some challenges at you constantly however it depends on how you respond to the challenges that life constant puts in front of you. Mary J has a new song that I am in full support of. Good Mornin Gorgeous,  is my new anthem. 💅,  I love it!! It puts me a great place. I am feeling my self. Music definitely puts me in the best mood. I am in a great mood right now. No matter what life throws at you,  you have to keep going.  At this point in my life I have no purpose is me focusing on self love.Rigjt now,  self love is the abest love. This is my new anthem for life. I am in a great place and in the best mood in my life. I can look at myselfand know

Today went really well. We just hung out and played all day. Of course we took tons of pictures. We enjoyed our day today. My mom and Kay  didn't come her had to get her car fixed today. I loved Quiantae a lot.  So today we say with Kate during our visit. We just chilled all day. First he sat on the tablet playing.  Then I just sat with him enjoying our time together. I sometimes feel bad because I am broke and I didn't really have many snacks to share. But I just gave him whateva I had to share. And he is okay with whatever I had. He's okay with sharing with me.  We played a lot. We always enjoy each other's company as we always do. Today was a good day. We always have a good time together. He always makes my heart smile. Derrick is weird at times because he always thinks that Q doesn't talk but he always does. He isn't too quiet to me, he always talks to me. He talks a lot to me. We are in a good place.  But we are still going through s...

“ I can definitely say that my life deals with people who creates drama just because. I used to be a ‘worry wart’. People will bring drama to your life and won’t even care how the drama makes you feel. I had to learn how to not care about anybody else’s drama. Walking away is the best way to avoid everybody elses issues. I had to learn how to stay away from it all. No one else is willing to allow other’s situations to complicate their own lives. Who wants to live like that? How wld that be appropriate? Walking away from a troublesome situation I learned is always best for me. I’ve learned to just stay away from all drama. For my own sanity. Simply saying, this situation is too much for me to deal with so I’ll stay away. I like bein able to talk to a therapist to sort out my problems. I like bein able to tell people how I feel. People never really understand how they make others feel. And they will continue to push your buttons if you let them.  So I'm pushing my blog for it to be r...

      I've always been brought up to not focus so much on myself when there are always bigger fish to fry or more important things and situations to focus on. So I've grown up and began to focus on more important things.  I had to start over at times. That didn't matter to me. I just know that I have to keep going through the most of my storms. Life always hands you what they want you to have. My everyday is a blessing and I had to learn to not take a day for granted. Life is always beautiful in the mist of the storms. You have to make great decisions for a great out look. There are always blessings around the corner. I'm happy most of the time. Other days I learn to grit my teeth and keep moving. You always have to keep going no matter how tough life gets.  And here he is in all of his glory. We get along better now. I like that we are getting along better. Funny how I began to relax my uptight standards. I began to see things in a different light. ...

      So I had to come up with the realization that nobody can see the visions that I have for my life. My life goals have no meaning to no one except myself. People will always try to discourage you from following your dreams meanwhile ; trying to get you to see their visions for your life. I know what I am doing, while trying to keep a level head about being able to stay focused on my goals and dreams; while still trying to get where I need to go.       I stay dreaming while I am awake to ensure that I always remember that people will always attempt to throw you off so that you never get to see your dreams come true. I always know that he gives me all the visions that I need, I just have to work for what I want.                 What can I say about my dating past? I can say that I had a wonderful time with each person that I was involved with. So sad that each oppor...

          Here we go. Life always has a way of throwing me curve balls damn near every day. Right now, my life is so weird. I always kept to myself, I never allow no one in to my inner circle, however, now for the first time in years I have let my guard down. Sometimes I feel that I am making a good decision, making adult decisions and being the best me that I can be. My life is always so complicated. I deserve to be happy, I feel that I am making a good decision. I felt good about meeting him. 

How can you feel the way that you feel? Can you not see the hurt that you put out? Can you not see the hurt that you dish out? How is it so easy to maneuver through life so carelessly. Been this way for a min, I am not heartless, I just use my heart less now. I smile because I am happy with me. Learning how to take my cuts and scraps because that is the way that is the way life happens for me. No more bein sad for something that will never happen for me. And just being happy with myself is more satisfying than me attempting to be somebody or someone that I'm not. My real life me is so much better.  I had fo get to a place where I don't care if anyone else loved me. There are times that people attempt to throw me off so that I don't fully love me but I have to just brush that shit off but I love the person that I have became. Life is life and love is love.

How can my life be so crazy? When did it end up so out of control? But I can't do anything but keep moving. My life isn't the way that I want it to be. But then again how do I want my life to be? Life is difficult at times but it is livable. I gotta keep moving. Gotta keep doing what I know to do. This life gets difficult at times but I gotta do what needs to be done.

Thanksgiving Day, we are almost all together. My daughter Maijah, is over Rob's house. He is keeping and eye on her for me for now. She chose to not come with us going over my mom's house. There is always some sort of twisted history in dealing with my family. Our Thanksgiving day was normal for the most. However; I missed my daughter Maijah, I needed her to be here with us. She won't with us and I missed her.

I have learned to do what I am comfortable with. Do what makes me happy and not focus on everybody else and their dreams. Ain't nobody gone live their life for you so why focus on somebody else's happiness. You have a dream? Well do what you wanna do. I can certainly guaranteed that everybody won't be happy. Somebody will complain about something. Focus on yourself and you'll be happier, I can promise that.

So here I am again. Trying to figure out how to get everybody to like me. But why do that? You were not put on this earth for everybody to like you and if they don't "Oh well." You weren't designed to have the whole world like you. There isn't a single person out here that has the admiration of all. It's hard but I'm learnin how to just be okay with having a few enemies. I was upset but for what? Who are they? And why are they so important? Smh they not. End of fuckin story!! Everybody didn't like God, even Jesus had people that critiqued him. So I'm not worried. Not a fuckin kid so opinion is mute and void. I will continue to write and post what I want. Be mad but keep it movin!!

My life I have always had a certain likeness for very attractive men. I am a sucker for a beautiful smile and a great body. One of my very favorite crushes since I first laid eyes on him is Mr Tremaine Aldon Neverson aka Trey Songz. The very first time I saw him was in a video and I couldn't believe it when I saw him. I said to myself "Damn he is fine!!" He was a cutie but young looking to me, I knew he was younger than I was because he had a baby face and he had a slight build. He had an amazing voice and hook, line and sinker I was a fan. Of course was always other singers and groups but he always stood out to me. My life was always so busy and I always had so much going on in my life being a mother, raising a family and all. That keeping tabs on Trey totally slipped my mind. But then I was watching BET and a video came on. I believe it was "Wonder Woman". I said to myself I really gotta let myself get back familiar with this guy here.  I love me a brown or c...

So today I walked for Breast Cancer Awareness in downtown Detroit, Michigan. Usually I meet my Angel Sisters there but today I didn't see them anywhere. But regardless to everything I went to support the cause, support the people who have lost their battles, people that are struggling with same battles, and the care givers, families and friend of people tht went through struggles with Breast Cancer. Honestly I went there alone but was so overwhelmed with love and support of all of the participants that I encountered today. It always warms my heart to share love, my love for a cause so great.

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