Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

      So I turned 40 this yr right? My children are getting older and I Lstarting thinking more freely. Growing up and getting older I felt my body would always be in great shape right? Without working out everyday, doing what it would take to make sure that I stayed in tip top shape.     With my body and this mess that they call #MS, I always thought thought that everything would be how it was supposed to be. Or at least what I was raised to believe it should have been. Back in the days, I didn't believe in having any kid of work on your body only because I never thought that any procedures were ever possible.       And since I looked it up, only because I wanted to know to see what was possible for me, just in case I felt the need to appease my curiosity, how much a procedure like that would cost and also how long the down time for it it would be.       I was able to see something because there were more options to ...

Sitting here tryna figure out where I go from here. I am register for my spring classes for this next semester. I am starting classes to become a jounalist. I love to write. I like finding out new information. I have been doing this for a while, may as well make my money doing it.

All I know, is that people continue to railroad me. I don't trust majority of the people that I deal with. At this point in my life, I never ever would have expected to be dealing with the type of shenanigans that I deal with. The hurt that it caused was far more worse than I would have ever imagined. But then I had to realize that it wasn't ever me, it was them. The issues never belonged me. It was always them. It took me a min but I had to let go of toxic relationships. Whoever is causing strife in my life had to be let go of. Family, friends or not.These are issues that have nothing to do with me but people will always try to throw their own thinking on to you despite what ever the situation is. And once you see things clearly, they'll still try to throw you into the mix that has nothing to do with you. It is simply their perception of you. Only what they think of you.