Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

          Here we go. Life always has a way of throwing me curve balls damn near every day. Right now, my life is so weird. I always kept to myself, I never allow no one in to my inner circle, however, now for the first time in years I have let my guard down. Sometimes I feel that I am making a good decision, making adult decisions and being the best me that I can be. My life is always so complicated. I deserve to be happy, I feel that I am making a good decision. I felt good about meeting him. 

For the last few day's I have bn struggling.  Struggling with the fact that I am lonely.  Almost, to tears, I feel so horribly bad. Being in the mental state that I am in. I struggle,  at times no matter what is going,  there is always a thought in the back of my mind. There are sometimes when the emptiness fills my head and I wanna just be in the company of others. It is sickining and I feel miserable about life. The other day my son told me to "Get out" of his room at Williams house,  only because he was on the phone with a girl.  I laughed it off and thought "Really?" and simply walked away and found me something else to do. He is growing up and getting older,  he isn't the same kid that he used to be. I ended up spending the rest of the night in the room that he shares with William.  He is growing up,  I have to let him be himself and not interfere as much.  I need to remember that "Yes" I am his mother,  I will always be here f...