Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

My thoughts on  how  life is going...... You definitely have to take the bitter with the sweet. It's your own life do whatever you need to do to make yourself happy. You have to be your make sure your happiness has to come first. Why would anybody seek validation from anybody else? I am my own promotion team. As long as I have breath in my body I will always do my best. Remember everybody else is taken, be yourself. 🙂

Today went really well. We just hung out and played all day. Of course we took tons of pictures. We enjoyed our day today. My mom and Kay  didn't come her had to get her car fixed today. I loved Quiantae a lot.  So today we say with Kate during our visit. We just chilled all day. First he sat on the tablet playing.  Then I just sat with him enjoying our time together. I sometimes feel bad because I am broke and I didn't really have many snacks to share. But I just gave him whateva I had to share. And he is okay with whatever I had. He's okay with sharing with me.  We played a lot. We always enjoy each other's company as we always do. Today was a good day. We always have a good time together. He always makes my heart smile. Derrick is weird at times because he always thinks that Q doesn't talk but he always does. He isn't too quiet to me, he always talks to me. He talks a lot to me. We are in a good place.  But we are still going through s...

      I've always been brought up to not focus so much on myself when there are always bigger fish to fry or more important things and situations to focus on. So I've grown up and began to focus on more important things.  I had to start over at times. That didn't matter to me. I just know that I have to keep going through the most of my storms. Life always hands you what they want you to have. My everyday is a blessing and I had to learn to not take a day for granted. Life is always beautiful in the mist of the storms. You have to make great decisions for a great out look. There are always blessings around the corner. I'm happy most of the time. Other days I learn to grit my teeth and keep moving. You always have to keep going no matter how tough life gets.  And here he is in all of his glory. We get along better now. I like that we are getting along better. Funny how I began to relax my uptight standards. I began to see things in a different light. ...

      So I had to come up with the realization that nobody can see the visions that I have for my life. My life goals have no meaning to no one except myself. People will always try to discourage you from following your dreams meanwhile ; trying to get you to see their visions for your life. I know what I am doing, while trying to keep a level head about being able to stay focused on my goals and dreams; while still trying to get where I need to go.       I stay dreaming while I am awake to ensure that I always remember that people will always attempt to throw you off so that you never get to see your dreams come true. I always know that he gives me all the visions that I need, I just have to work for what I want.                 What can I say about my dating past? I can say that I had a wonderful time with each person that I was involved with. So sad that each oppor...

          Here we go. Life always has a way of throwing me curve balls damn near every day. Right now, my life is so weird. I always kept to myself, I never allow no one in to my inner circle, however, now for the first time in years I have let my guard down. Sometimes I feel that I am making a good decision, making adult decisions and being the best me that I can be. My life is always so complicated. I deserve to be happy, I feel that I am making a good decision. I felt good about meeting him. 

How can my life be so crazy? When did it end up so out of control? But I can't do anything but keep moving. My life isn't the way that I want it to be. But then again how do I want my life to be? Life is difficult at times but it is livable. I gotta keep moving. Gotta keep doing what I know to do. This life gets difficult at times but I gotta do what needs to be done.

Thanksgiving Day, we are almost all together. My daughter Maijah, is over Rob's house. He is keeping and eye on her for me for now. She chose to not come with us going over my mom's house. There is always some sort of twisted history in dealing with my family. Our Thanksgiving day was normal for the most. However; I missed my daughter Maijah, I needed her to be here with us. She won't with us and I missed her.