Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

          For as long as I can remember I was under a certain impression that ppl wanted to be helpful to me because they were just really good ppl. That was so not the case, who wld've known that they were devils in disguise? The ppl that I thought were in my corner were actually ppl who had their own agendas. Initially it was all love until I guess they wanted to stop helping me. Oh well, I had to learn that everybody isn't really your friend. Not everybody means you any good.

I write because I hurt. I write to get all of this hurt out my heart. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I can't. I just need to get to have a voice. Sometimes the sadness creeps in and I want to cry but I can't. I try my best to control my emotions and it is hard. Sometimes all I can do is cry. Is that wrong to lose all self control? Is it bad to not be able to hold the sadness inside? Is it bad to verbalize it? Maybe maybe, I don't know yet. I will have to get back to you on that after I 'm done with my tears and giving myself a hug.