Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

My thoughts on  how  life is going...... You definitely have to take the bitter with the sweet. It's your own life do whatever you need to do to make yourself happy. You have to be your make sure your happiness has to come first. Why would anybody seek validation from anybody else? I am my own promotion team. As long as I have breath in my body I will always do my best. Remember everybody else is taken, be yourself. 🙂

      I've always been brought up to not focus so much on myself when there are always bigger fish to fry or more important things and situations to focus on. So I've grown up and began to focus on more important things.  I had to start over at times. That didn't matter to me. I just know that I have to keep going through the most of my storms. Life always hands you what they want you to have. My everyday is a blessing and I had to learn to not take a day for granted. Life is always beautiful in the mist of the storms. You have to make great decisions for a great out look. There are always blessings around the corner. I'm happy most of the time. Other days I learn to grit my teeth and keep moving. You always have to keep going no matter how tough life gets.  And here he is in all of his glory. We get along better now. I like that we are getting along better. Funny how I began to relax my uptight standards. I began to see things in a different light. ...

      So I had to come up with the realization that nobody can see the visions that I have for my life. My life goals have no meaning to no one except myself. People will always try to discourage you from following your dreams meanwhile ; trying to get you to see their visions for your life. I know what I am doing, while trying to keep a level head about being able to stay focused on my goals and dreams; while still trying to get where I need to go.       I stay dreaming while I am awake to ensure that I always remember that people will always attempt to throw you off so that you never get to see your dreams come true. I always know that he gives me all the visions that I need, I just have to work for what I want.                 What can I say about my dating past? I can say that I had a wonderful time with each person that I was involved with. So sad that each oppor...

      So I turned 40 this yr right? My children are getting older and I Lstarting thinking more freely. Growing up and getting older I felt my body would always be in great shape right? Without working out everyday, doing what it would take to make sure that I stayed in tip top shape.     With my body and this mess that they call #MS, I always thought thought that everything would be how it was supposed to be. Or at least what I was raised to believe it should have been. Back in the days, I didn't believe in having any kid of work on your body only because I never thought that any procedures were ever possible.       And since I looked it up, only because I wanted to know to see what was possible for me, just in case I felt the need to appease my curiosity, how much a procedure like that would cost and also how long the down time for it it would be.       I was able to see something because there were more options to ...

          Here we go. Life always has a way of throwing me curve balls damn near every day. Right now, my life is so weird. I always kept to myself, I never allow no one in to my inner circle, however, now for the first time in years I have let my guard down. Sometimes I feel that I am making a good decision, making adult decisions and being the best me that I can be. My life is always so complicated. I deserve to be happy, I feel that I am making a good decision. I felt good about meeting him. 

How can you feel the way that you feel? Can you not see the hurt that you put out? Can you not see the hurt that you dish out? How is it so easy to maneuver through life so carelessly. Been this way for a min, I am not heartless, I just use my heart less now. I smile because I am happy with me. Learning how to take my cuts and scraps because that is the way that is the way life happens for me. No more bein sad for something that will never happen for me. And just being happy with myself is more satisfying than me attempting to be somebody or someone that I'm not. My real life me is so much better.  I had fo get to a place where I don't care if anyone else loved me. There are times that people attempt to throw me off so that I don't fully love me but I have to just brush that shit off but I love the person that I have became. Life is life and love is love.

I have learned to do what I am comfortable with. Do what makes me happy and not focus on everybody else and their dreams. Ain't nobody gone live their life for you so why focus on somebody else's happiness. You have a dream? Well do what you wanna do. I can certainly guaranteed that everybody won't be happy. Somebody will complain about something. Focus on yourself and you'll be happier, I can promise that.