Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

How can my life be so crazy? When did it end up so out of control? But I can't do anything but keep moving. My life isn't the way that I want it to be. But then again how do I want my life to be? Life is difficult at times but it is livable. I gotta keep moving. Gotta keep doing what I know to do. This life gets difficult at times but I gotta do what needs to be done.

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Am I supposed to feel the same way? *shrugs* You disappear for a few weeks. No calls, no texts, no nothing. This let's me know that we won't be the same as we used to be. Honestly, we we're not the same a few years ago. I tried to play it off as long as I could. I am genuinely happy for you. You got exactly what you wanted. And as much as we talked about it, it didn't include me. It is a sad, sad conclusion that I bring myself to all the time. How can we have a life together bit don't include each other. I always thought that we would but it was never what I dreamed of. I am not happy with how things turned out. We were supposed to include each other when we made plans. I apologize for all of my actions that changed your way of thinking. I can admit I made the first mistake. By choosing the wrong person. So I can't blame you all I can do is accept everything that you do. I feel that there is nowhere for is to go from here. We can start over but how? We are hones...

Stop feeling like you have to have every bodies approval for everything. All of my life I thought that I knew what I wanted,  then God gave me another way of thinking and another way to do things. Being able to stay at home and be a parent is another way of doing things. And I have bn lacking and lazy. I have to get up and stop looking for support and simply support myself. I am at home to figure out I am supposed to support myself. God has definitely given me really supportive people who has always had my back. But I lean entirely too much on people when I need to lean on myself. I have always had great ideas. Now I need to combine my great ideas with a great work effort. I am a great writer. I need to publish my book and finish the other book that I have. I am starting this new blog and I am super excited about it. Everything is going to be fine, I just have to have more confidence in myself and believe that I will do all that I need to do. I will be writing stories, my own stori...