Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

All I know, is that people continue to railroad me. I don't trust majority of the people that I deal with. At this point in my life, I never ever would have expected to be dealing with the type of shenanigans that I deal with. The hurt that it caused was far more worse than I would have ever imagined. But then I had to realize that it wasn't ever me, it was them. The issues never belonged me. It was always them. It took me a min but I had to let go of toxic relationships. Whoever is causing strife in my life had to be let go of. Family, friends or not.These are issues that have nothing to do with me but people will always try to throw their own thinking on to you despite what ever the situation is. And once you see things clearly, they'll still try to throw you into the mix that has nothing to do with you. It is simply their perception of you. Only what they think of you. 

How can you feel the way that you feel? Can you not see the hurt that you put out? Can you not see the hurt that you dish out? How is it so easy to maneuver through life so carelessly. Been this way for a min, I am not heartless, I just use my heart less now. I smile because I am happy with me. Learning how to take my cuts and scraps because that is the way that is the way life happens for me. No more bein sad for something that will never happen for me. And just being happy with myself is more satisfying than me attempting to be somebody or someone that I'm not. My real life me is so much better.  I had fo get to a place where I don't care if anyone else loved me. There are times that people attempt to throw me off so that I don't fully love me but I have to just brush that shit off but I love the person that I have became. Life is life and love is love.