LOVE YOURSELF




      I've always been brought up to not focus so much on myself when there are always bigger fish to fry or more important things and situations to focus on. So I've grown up and began to focus on more important things. 

I had to start over at times. That didn't matter to me. I just know that I have to keep going through the most of my storms. Life always hands you what they want you to have. My everyday is a blessing and I had to learn to not take a day for granted. Life is always beautiful in the mist of the storms. You have to make great decisions for a great out look. There are always blessings around the corner. I'm happy most of the time. Other days I learn to grit my teeth and keep moving. You always have to keep going no matter how tough life gets. 

And here he is in all of his glory.

We get along better now. I like that we are getting along better. Funny how I began to relax my uptight standards. I began to see things in a different light. I began to not take life so seriously. I used to be up tight. I couldn't even keep a smile on my face most of the time. I actually continued to be more stern about everything. More recently I've began to look at life more carefree now. At first I was tripping, I was ridged to how he lived life. I had to start enjoying my life more. He enjoys life more because of how he is. And I accept that reasoning.  


      Life will have you wanting more than you're used to having. And it keeps you going until you get the strength to do more than what you're used to. Take as much as you need to proceed to your next adventure. Life gets tricky, at times however; you can't just give up and lay down and play dead. You have to love your self enough to make sure that you continue to get better and wanting more. Life gets you to put in much more than you ever expected. Tomorrow is Wednesday. I get to go see my son on Wednesday's. I hope he'll be just as excited to see me as I am him. I've learned to not take life so seriously and started enjoy each moment so that I didn't feel like life has passed me by. 


I just keep on writing. I have nothing else to do. Writing feels natural to me. I'm in a happy place, I like where I am at. I have to continue to ✍️ write everything. Where I am, what I do, what my reaction to everything is. I like how my life is going. I keep a smile on my face, and happy memories in my brain. So writing is a given for me and I actually prefer and enjoy it. Life is life and love is love. 
Sincely yours, 
Ms Matara

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