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Don't ask permission, ask forgiveness

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Stop feeling like you have to have every bodies approval for everything. All of my life I thought that I knew what I wanted,  then God gave me another way of thinking and another way to do things. Being able to stay at home and be a parent is another way of doing things. And I have bn lacking and lazy. I have to get up and stop looking for support and simply support myself. I am at home to figure out I am supposed to support myself. God has definitely given me really supportive people who has always had my back. But I lean entirely too much on people when I need to lean on myself. I have always had great ideas. Now I need to combine my great ideas with a great work effort. I am a great writer. I need to publish my book and finish the other book that I have. I am starting this new blog and I am super excited about it. Everything is going to be fine, I just have to have more confidence in myself and believe that I will do all that I need to do. I will be writing stories, my own stori...

Why I write

I write because I hurt. I write to get all of this hurt out my heart. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I can't. I just need to get to have a voice. Sometimes the sadness creeps in and I want to cry but I can't. I try my best to control my emotions and it is hard. Sometimes all I can do is cry. Is that wrong to lose all self control? Is it bad to not be able to hold the sadness inside? Is it bad to verbalize it? Maybe maybe, I don't know yet. I will have to get back to you on that after I 'm done with my tears and giving myself a hug.