Loosening my grip, letting go

For the last few day's I have bn struggling.  Struggling with the fact that I am lonely.  Almost, to tears, I feel so horribly bad. Being in the mental state that I am in. I struggle,  at times no matter what is going,  there is always a thought in the back of my mind. There are sometimes when the emptiness fills my head and I wanna just be in the company of others. It is sickining and I feel miserable about life. The other day my son told me to "Get out" of his room at Williams house,  only because he was on the phone with a girl.  I laughed it off and thought "Really?" and simply walked away and found me something else to do. He is growing up and getting older,  he isn't the same kid that he used to be. I ended up spending the rest of the night in the room that he shares with William.  He is growing up,  I have to let him be himself and not interfere as much.  I need to remember that "Yes" I am his mother,  I will always be here for all of his milestones, not missing a beat just remember to let him have his space. He isn't going anywhere,  just simply finding his way in life. I will be here for everything just let him do what ever it is that he wants to do. I am a mother bear,  loosening her grip on her youngest cub,  watching him as he takes his first few steps alone, learning how to be independant.