Really Doe?!?

Am I supposed to feel the same way? *shrugs* You disappear for a few weeks. No calls, no texts, no nothing. This let's me know that we won't be the same as we used to be. Honestly, we we're not the same a few years ago. I tried to play it off as long as I could. I am genuinely happy for you. You got exactly what you wanted. And as much as we talked about it, it didn't include me. It is a sad, sad conclusion that I bring myself to all the time. How can we have a life together bit don't include each other. I always thought that we would but it was never what I dreamed of. I am not happy with how things turned out. We were supposed to include each other when we made plans. I apologize for all of my actions that changed your way of thinking. I can admit I made the first mistake. By choosing the wrong person. So I can't blame you all I can do is accept everything that you do. I feel that there is nowhere for is to go from here. We can start over but how? We are honestly in different spaces. My love for you is unchanged. I feel like I don't wanna just walk away from what we had. You meant the world to me for a really long time but now the love isn't the same. It still makes me happy to hear your voice. I hear it and I smile. I am very proud of the man you've become. I am not the same person that I used to be. I am growing up. I know that I am older but I have taken a little while to do what I felt. I owe some of my progress to you. You have helped me kinda grow up. I learned recently that I can't depend on you to always be my Knight in shining armour. I can't always lean on your shoulder. The relationship that we have is only a friendship and nothing more. I had to learn how to quit looking for help. I love you dearly but we are not right for each other. Our dreams for and with each other died a long time ago. Just being friends would have to just be okay. I pray that you get all of of life that you are looking for.