I can't live here anymore

I can't live in the past where I thought my family life was perfect. No longer do I see my family as the loving type. All I see is people who want to use and abuse you. Tonight June 7, 2015 my mother wanted to go  through a lot of bull crap. I was fed up with always playing nice. The way my mother is set up she will still use and abuse you. Fuck anybody up with no second thoughts about hurting anyone. I'm sick of fighting her; my whole point is why fight. Being a parent isn't a reason to fight kids when you disagree. It isn't ever necessary to go through any of the bull. I had to laugh her off when she said that I couldn't handle her. May or maybe not but is that really where she goes with that? No one is afraid of her any more, we aren't children anymore. We have our own children but we can't expect her to be the best role model for the kids. We had already discussed the fact that the kitchen was slightly messy and I would clean it up. My sister came out of the room fussing and cussing. She decided that she would clean the very few dishes that we're messed up. That gave my mother reason to go off on a rampage. She didn't like being disrespected; and I understood that but I was not in the mood for any fighting at 3 am. She began to holler and wake everybody else up in the house. My nephew in turn began screaming at the top of his lungs for them to stop. My oldest daughter began to tell us to stop because she didn't want to hear hollering. All of the kids began to wake up and individually began to say a few words. Apparently my mom and my sister goes through this a lot. I myself, got tired of going through these type of issues once I didn't have to live like this. For me being disabled isn't an issue with my family. It is like there isn't anything wrong with me. Well really in their opinion. Obviously they are always right. Life gets hard at times however I have to keep pushing forward and accomplishing my goals.