Life as I see it...in my own words!!!

My life hasn't ended up the way that I need for it to be. I need to get my life in a good place. My life's journey keeps going on.

   I woke up early. I made French Fries.

   I have a love affair with my hands. My nails arw growing great. It took a while for my hands fall in line and at least grow in correctly and growin the right way.  It took almost all of my life for my nails to start growing correctly and I'm happy with that. I guess since my nails are growing I just have to

      I am such a mom,  I always want things to be my way . But more importantly I want things to be right. Well at least in my eyes right? So last year was a year that my life changed dramatically. I had unnecessary people and moments prying to see what my next moves wld be, just to pry and not to assist me in any way. I had to pick myself up and continue on with my life without missing a beat. Life always gives you unexpected moments and blessings everyday. It is up to you for you to continue your own happiness and for you to keep your own smile on your face while staying happy.       Life begins to change everyday for you. What exactly can you do? Get a grip and hang on for the ride. Life changes everyday. What exactly can you do? You do what you need to do and keep it moving

   Up extra early in the morning. I'm thinking that I gotta go more. My youtube is back on and I'm excited about my opportunities. Gotta work on my writing more. Ans I gotta stay more in control of what happens to me. Because this is my life and nobody else's. So here I go. Starting my life all over again. Lemme get my writing back to were it needs to be. My life to my normal. But this is my new normal. And I gotta get used to it. My life went in a totally different way. My life ia crazy. I don't have my son; he's in foster care and I'm still hurt about it. I see him one day a week. I'm hurt but life goes on.  7

          For as long as I can remember I was under a certain impression that ppl wanted to be helpful to me because they were just really good ppl. That was so not the case, who wld've known that they were devils in disguise? The ppl that I thought were in my corner were actually ppl who had their own agendas. Initially it was all love until I guess they wanted to stop helping me. Oh well, I had to learn that everybody isn't really your friend. Not everybody means you any good.

     Recently, I had finally joined an MS support group on FB. I had never done anything like this right but I was looking for more support among my peers. And in an instant, I flourished. Once I had gotten here I felt as if I had truly belong. I begin to ask questions initially, just to see if any one else had bn going throu the same issues as I had. I loved the overwhelming responses that I had bn getting from everyone. For the longest time, I didn't feel that I belonged anywhere bc I cldntn't hear my own voices over the loud chatter from others. I had to stop walking quietly, plant my feel on the ground and take big steps.      Initially I was concerned as I was unsure of my steps and what my thoughts wld produce but; as I continue to move, I began to be more assured of what I was doin. Life began to look more positive.    Sure the situation looked bleak at times however; you can't stop and allow other situations to clutter your min...